G-d knew that in order to get me from where I am to who he wants me to
be, would require a lot of learning and stretching–sometimes VERY
painful stretching. And he knew that bringing me together with many of
you who have strengths where I am weak, would do just that. You all know
who you are, too many to list but I would be remiss if I didn't list my
bff Chrissy Joy Dodd :) still stretching, but she makes sure the rubber band that is me doesn't snap :) my gosh it can't be easy to be my friend I am always sick, always have issues, but she doesn't stop loving.
I am no longer going to be a vegetable. I can contribute to society in a positive way, even from bed. I can cut the parts to my cards I want to take to the jail, plan them out and put them in baggies so they are ready to go when I get healthy. I *REALLY* want to do a jail/nursing home/long term care ministry. I see how a bit of my self worth is restored when I am able to make a card, and I want to share that.
I am also going to learn about a different country each month, and viewing Veronica's blog led me to want to learn about Black History and civil rights. When I lay here just watching youtube or going to the Daily Mail day after day, the devil is winning. My old abusive boss is winning. It is time that I won. I just need to realize I am worth fighting myself for. I didn't survive 3 heart attacks, and sepsis with my organs starting to shut down to lay in bed and veg out day after day. I have worth, even here.
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